spare part

i am not a spare part

to be prodded 

and poked 

picked up 

and put down 

loved for my body

only my body 

and not for my soul

i am not option number two 

warm consolation 

kissable lips 

when she who you'd rather kiss

is otherwise preoccupied 

with other lies 

with other guys 

i am glittering gold 

i withstand the test of time 

i have an opalescent sense of optimism 

i love with each vein in my heart

but i won't let love tear me apart

i 

won't be 

picked up 

and put down

and picked up

to correct your frown 

i won't be picked up 

and put down 

i am in the ministry of certainty 

of availability 

of love without a ceiling 

of kissing 

french kissing 

at rooftop bars 

of you knowing me 

and me knowing you for exactly 

who you are 

i am not tuesday through thursday 

i am not an occasional scratcher

for even more occasional lottery wins

but i feel just as good 

i am on fire with affection 

with intentional direction 

i am not the other piece when 

she and her 

are fed up of you 

i am not to be used 

i am not a spare part 

i am not a spare part 

i am not a spare part