quiet

i want to be alone in my room 

and for the birds to stop singing for a while

and for the downstairs neighbour to switch off

the dyson

for the central heating to stop its hum

flatlined 

quiet 

empty 

nothing

it's gotten so busy lately

words in one ear leave through the other like

being chased out 

i feel unable to hold a thought for long 

it moves through the conveyor belt 

it doesn't like to stop

i ignored the shivering feeling i get when 

there is too much fun and no sleep

and i let it go on 

much too long this time

i have been horizontal now for months 

and vertical life

living like the homo Erectus 

the upright man 

seems very unattractive 

it’s just not for me 

i'll just lay here 

maybe i wouldn't mind if someone quite

handsome or pretty would

spoon me 

but even they should go after a short hour 

for breathing in and out is a sound 

and love is a sound 

and when i hold your hand 

and you touch my waist 

it is quiet 

but it is a sound 

i want to be alone in my room 

and for the birds to stop singing for a while

and for the downstairs neighbour to switch off

the dyson